Touch can Torch!!

Alrighty, time to recover from a long absence of thought searching. Currently, I am going on dates with a woman who I have come to really like. A girl that I didn't see coming and who when I first met I had no intention of liking. Maybe that is how it always works... won't be taking time to think about that right now. Anyways, it has been enjoyable. It has been different. Although we are not dating yet, there has been boundaries made when we are together. My last couple of relationships I have stumbled into grey areas and beyond as far as physical expression of love. So, this time, although with extremely great difficulty, there is and will be more definite boundaries. Now, if you are reading this, I really ask you to consider this in your own relationships. The greatest way to show respect (very important), is to not get overly physically intimate in a relationship before engagement and marriage. Although it may at the time be a way to show your care and love, if you don't stay together, it more so shows that you took advantage of a situation that you weren't sure of. I know that I have hurt girls and have been hurt in the past, just because we were unable to use appropriate self-control. What I think is going to happen is that we are going to have to make consequences for breaching boundaries, that are pretty severe. If I can't respect a boundary before I get married, then what does that say about my trustworthiness and discipline. It make be extremely aggravating and frustrating, but I think it is the best way to approach a person you like or love. It will also be a judge of how much the other person respects you. The other thing that will be benificial out of that is that it may aid you in avoiding difficult circumstances in the first place. If you know that self-control is difficult, you may need to take actions to even avoid situations. Look at Joseph running half-naked. He knew how to avoid getting past a boundary he had for himself. Anyways, it is going to be hard.

Other comments: Isn't funny, how timing is everything? I once had about a 5 and a half year crush on someone that seesawed back and forth without us actually getting together. The truth was that she liked me a good protion of that time too. The timing was just never right. Would it be easier with people were maybe able to take a little more risk and be a little more honest... Maybe the timing would be more bang on sometimes. Anyways, Other things to mention, I am eventually going to write my paper, tomorrow I am going to begin my quest to write a 30 page paper that is going to change lives. Pray for me... I really struggle with the motivation part of that. What else is up??? I cannot read poetry for the life of me...! I tried so hard. Pretty much the only good poetry that I have found to read is written by Taryn. She writes some awesome stuff. So, getting back to the job has been encouraging. The kids are way better behaved now. They seem to have mellowed a bit. Melynda's little brother is going to be volunteering with us on and off which is a total relief to me. I am really excited about tackling the new year. I'll getting back to this more now that my schedule isn't full of vacation fun and festivities and all my friends are busy most of the day again. Exclusively, Ben